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	      <title><![CDATA[Bus-flights of Fancy]]></title>
	      <link>http://ghosthelwig.buzznet.com/user/journal/3253461/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P>I... am going to be a little vague with&nbsp;the script itself,&nbsp;because I can't even hope to capture what everyone would actually say.&nbsp; I'm not sure how much of TAI TV is scripted anyway, &amp; how much is off the cuff, so...&nbsp; Yeah.&nbsp; If any of the spoken lines are bad/not funny enough/just not <EM>right</EM>, feel free to change them.</P>
<P>Same with movements.&nbsp; I wrote in what I thought would be funny, but you guys are way funnier than me, so feel free to improve &amp; improvise.&nbsp; :D</P>
<P>As a further disclaimer, I would like it known that I in <EM>no way</EM> think these personalities reflect who the guys are.&nbsp; Hence the comedy.&nbsp; ;)</P>
<P>My idea is this:</P>
<P><EM>Bus-flights of Fancy</EM></P>
<P>It's downtime on the tour bus.&nbsp; The boys are all hanging out in the front of the bus, in various states of disarray.&nbsp; William is towards the back, with Mike and Michael.&nbsp; Sisky and the Butcher are more towards the front.&nbsp; William is on his computer.&nbsp; Michael is reading.&nbsp; Mike is leaning back, perusing&nbsp;a magazine.&nbsp; The Butcher is drawing.&nbsp; Sisky is eating a sandwich (<EM>this is important</EM>).&nbsp; He says something along the lines of: "Hey, Chizzy. If you could be doing anything right now, what would it be?"</P>
<P>Close-up of Michael's face, and a fade into another scene.&nbsp; We are "in Michael's head" now.&nbsp; Show him walking down the street, in a Tough Guy suit (like the ones he and William wore earlier this season, in the Las Vegas Showdown - just no sunglasses).&nbsp; He's "packing heat", very obviously.&nbsp; He passes the guys from his band, who all turn and stare after him.&nbsp;&nbsp;The Butcher&nbsp;says, "Man, that guy is&nbsp;so cool."&nbsp; The others nod &amp; agree.</P>
<P>We hear a girl - Cassadee - scream, and Michael springs into action,&nbsp;racing around&nbsp;a corner and finding her being pushed around by the guys from Carolina Liar.</P>
<P>Michael immediately starts "shooting", and the guys pull their own guns and "shoot" back as Cassadee ducks down.&nbsp; Slo-mo shot of Michael shooting and jumping to the side to avoid the return gunfire.&nbsp; Eventually the guys are all lying on the ground, defeated.&nbsp; Michael stands up, &amp; brushes off his suit.&nbsp; Cassadee stands too, and asks him what she can possibly do to thank him (preferably while fluttering her eyelashes in a very exaggerated manner).</P>
<P>He says "Nothing, pretty lady" and gives a very cheesy wink to the camera.</P>
<P>Finally return back to the bus, with a close-up of Michael's face.&nbsp; Michael shakes himself out of the reverie, and stammers a bit before telling Sisky he would prefer to be swimming.&nbsp; Sisky turns to William and says, "Bill?"</P>
<P>Close-up of William's face this time.&nbsp; Pull out to reveal William standing on a stage, in a "toga" (which you can probably fashion a crude one from a sheet).&nbsp; He spreads his arms and "sings", loud &amp; high, as if he's in an opera.&nbsp; With all the huge gesturing and overly emotional faces that implies.</P>
<P>**For this part, William could always hit one random high note, or (and this might be funnier; hard to tell) have him pretend to sing while the voice of an actual opera singer could be used over his voice.&nbsp; I heard he's sick, so that would probably be the best way to go anyway.&nbsp; He can rest his voice for actual concerts.&nbsp; ;)**</P>
<P>When the note ends, he gives a bow, and from off stage fake roses are thrown at his feet.&nbsp; He sweeps some up and waves to the crowd, even blows a few kisses.&nbsp; "Thank you," he says as the crowd claps harder &amp; harder.&nbsp; He gets a little teary-eyed as he takes more bows.&nbsp; Show the guys from Hey Monday as the front of the crowd (the rest of the crowd is&nbsp;shrouded in darkness, so as to give the illusion of more people there), giving him a standing ovation and throwing the roses.</P>
<P>When William blows a kiss in their direction, Elliot (or one of the other guys, if they prefer) "faints", falling backwards.</P>
<P>Back on the bus, another close-up &amp; William rolls his eyes, says he would rather be "Sleeping.&nbsp; I need to catch up on my beauty sleep."</P>
<P>"We know," Mike says.&nbsp; William&nbsp;throws&nbsp;a pillow at him.&nbsp; Mike catches the pillow only after it hits his face.</P>
<P>"What about <EM>you</EM>, Mikey?"&nbsp;William says.&nbsp; "What would you rather be doing?"&nbsp; Close-up of the blissful look on Mike's face...</P>
<P>And then&nbsp;we see the guys all on the bus.&nbsp; Mike is lying back on the couch, relaxing.&nbsp; He has a crown on his head, and he's looking very cozy, with lots of pillows around him.&nbsp; Each of the other boys in his band is shirtless, and on the screen below you can flash the words "this is for the fangirls".</P>
<P>Michael is fanning Mike.&nbsp; Mike waves at the Butcher and Sisky, who are standing nearby.&nbsp; "Do it," he commands.&nbsp; They look at each other-</P>
<P>And begin to do a country dance.&nbsp; You know, where you hook your arm in your partner's and go around in a circle, then switch arms and do it again.&nbsp; As they do this, Mike begins to laugh and laugh...</P>
<P>Finally William leans in and says, "More grapes?"&nbsp; Mike nods, and William begins feeding grapes to him.&nbsp; Close-up on Mike's smile as he accepts a grape...</P>
<P>Return to the bus, and Mike's happy face.&nbsp; "Fishing", he says.</P>
<P>Back to Sisky, who&nbsp;turns to the Butcher.&nbsp; "Yo, Butcher," he says.&nbsp; "Your turn."&nbsp; The Butcher looks at him, watches him take a big bite of his sandwich and chew contentedly...&nbsp; (Close-up of the Butcher's face.)</P>
<P>Then Butcher pictures himself wrestling the sandwich away from a protesting Sisky and holding it high above his head in victory.&nbsp; Finally he brings it back down and takes a huge bite, grinning as he chews.</P>
<P>Back on the bus he's still&nbsp;smiling,&nbsp;and he says, "Eating".&nbsp; He stares at Sisky's sandwich and licks his lips.&nbsp; Sisky watches him with nervous concern.</P>
<P>"What about you, Sisky?" William says.&nbsp; "What would you rather be doing?"</P>
<P>Close-up of Sisky's face.&nbsp; Slowly pull back to reveal all the guys sitting where they really are on the bus, doing the same things they were doing before Sisky asked his question.</P>
<P>Back to reality.&nbsp; Sisky says, "Exactly what I am doing - oh, wait."</P>
<P>Another close-up of Sisky's face.&nbsp; Pull back to reveal the same set-up, everyone in their same places-</P>
<P>Except this time, the guys from We The Kings are all tied up on the floor of the bus, squirming and trying to get free.&nbsp; Go to another close-up of Sisky's face as we return to reality.</P>
<P>"I'd be doing what I am doing, but better," he says.</P>
<P>The guys return to their activities.&nbsp; Show the Butcher drawing a sketch of himself eating a sandwich.</P>
<P>*Sort-of-the-end*</P>
<P>If possible (and since I think my idea might've been a bit short), you could always add on a part where everyone in the other bands on the tour trades off saying "Dedicated to my good friend, Adam T. Siska."&nbsp; Finish with We The Kings, and Travis saying, "Sucker owes me twenty dollars."</P>
<P><STRONG>Props:</STRONG></P>
<P>The sandwich (two, probably, but as alike as they can possibly look) - $20 or less; very less, if you have ingredients on the bus.</P>
<P>The toga - can be fashioned from an ordinary sheet, which I assume you have.&nbsp; And if it doesn't look perfect, well, it's funnier that way.&nbsp; :)</P>
<P>Fake roses - $10</P>
<P>Optional opera song - $20 if you need to buy a CD.&nbsp; $.99 if you have iTunes.&nbsp; Free if you have anything that would work in your computer already.</P>
<P>Michael's Tough Guy suit - I'm assuming that he's got clothes that'll work, and that nothing has to be bought.&nbsp; Hopefully.</P>
<P>The guns - $40...&nbsp; It's been a long, long time since I shopped at Wal-Mart for toys.&nbsp; Heh.</P>
<P>The crown - $8.</P>
<P>Pillows - I'm assuming you have some.</P>
<P>Fan - $5.</P>
<P>Grapes - $5.</P>
<P>I think I went over by like, $8, but these are only estimates.&nbsp; hopefully the food you can get easier, because that'll free up a lot of the budget.</P>
<P>I really hope you all like this idea.&nbsp; It was fun writing it either way.&nbsp; :)</P>]]></description>
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	      <dc:creator>ghosthelwig</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-10-23T15:36:53Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Hope]]></title>
	      <link>http://ghosthelwig.buzznet.com/user/journal/3156981/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Hope<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">By Ghost Helwig<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Here I am<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Across these lands<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">And across these hands<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">I lay down<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">For I trust myself<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Even when<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">The holes in me<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Seep through<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">So I’m giving up<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">On giving love<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Until one day<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">I can get by<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">And hold my own<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">While all alone<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Instead of waiting here<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">For you<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Because it’s wasting time<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">And I’m wasting mine<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">No more<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>]]></description>
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		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>ghosthelwig</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-10-10T13:50:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Silence]]></title>
	      <link>http://ghosthelwig.buzznet.com/user/journal/3145031/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Silence<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">By Ghost Helwig<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Silence is<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Most beautiful<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">When it’s not<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Your own<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">And the last thing<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">You want<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Is to be<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Left alone<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">But darkness lives<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Between the beats<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">That violate<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">The soul<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">And offers up<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Your callousness<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">To penetrate<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">The cold<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">And violence lives<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Inside your heart<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">When you<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Get left behind<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">I’ve got to see<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Inside of you<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">To see your<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Aching mind<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">The reason is<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">That loneliness<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">And bitterness<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Do divide<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">So touch my hand<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Give it a hold<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">And you will be<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Fine<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">For silence may be<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">Gold<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">But it isn’t<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>  <P class=MsoNormal style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt"><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: Calibri,sans-serif; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin">When it’s cold<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>]]></description>
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		  		  	<category>prose</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>ghosthelwig</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-10-09T05:24:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[Pooling Waters (Slashy.  Dark.  Don't say you weren't warned.)]]></title>
	      <link>http://ghosthelwig.buzznet.com/user/journal/3141501/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=center><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">Pooling Waters<?xml:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" /><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=center><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial"><EM>by Ghost Helwig<o:p></o:p></EM></SPAN></P>
<P style="TEXT-ALIGN: center" align=center><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial"><o:p>&nbsp;</o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">Later on he would blame himself, though he was never quite clear on why. But then... He <I>had</I> stayed when Wood repeatedly told him not to. He hadn’t <I>wanted</I> to, but his feet and his heart and his lungs and just everything inside him would not obey. <o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">And so afterwards, it was almost natural to go for the blade.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">He could’ve used Johnathan’s knife again, of course, even though he had given it away to keep himself from doing just that, but he hadn’t wanted to go through the trouble necessary to get it back. And he also knew that he was supposed to attempt this while in a tub full of warm water, but he didn’t want to die in an airless bathtub, surrounded on all sides by heartless walls. No, that was not for him. Even as furious with himself as he was, he could not do that.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">So this time he tried it while hiding under the dock, hoping that this time he would not be found by family, by people he loved and who loved him in turn. Another reason to forego the bathtub idea, and just cut as deep as the razor could go...<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">So he did it, and, ironically enough, <I>prayed</I>... He hadn’t bothered with a note this time, hadn’t thought anything through, not with his mind full of Brad’s twisted razorblade futures and his insides full of Wood’s hot, sticky-<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">So no, he hadn’t thought, not really. Unusual for him, but he was starting to feel less and less <I>like</I> him as time wore on. Soon enough the Ghost he’d once been would be just a shade, a thought behind someone else’s eyes...<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">So really, he wasn’t killing himself, because he was long since dead and gone.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">As his mind swirled lower and lower, darker and darker, he focused on the thought that maybe this time he would truly be breathing his last-<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">And a vision, not a dream or an imagining or a fantasy planted in him by a madman but a real and true <I>vision</I>, flashed in front of his mind’s eye.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><I><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">Himself, soaked through with blood. A young man, no older than he, skinny and confused and looking shocked, ill. Another young man, younger but of an older bearing, bigger and more together even in the face of this horror, rushed forward, knelt beside him and searched frantically for his pulse. Having found it, though it was weak and sullied, like he was, like he’d rather die than be, like he was trying to kill himself before fully becoming, the young man ordered the other to call for help, to staunch the flow of his blood by applying pressure with his hands, and he knew it would work, suddenly, he knew that it would all work and he would live-</SPAN></I><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial"><o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">And that was what finally knocked the vision from him.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">As he passed out, he, who never swore, even in his own mind, could not help but <I>feel</I> a soft but emotional “<I>fuck</I>”.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">It seemed he could never do anything right. Even die.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
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<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">Author’s Notes – A snippet from this boy’s (Ghost’s) life, originally posted on my livejournal community for original fiction, <A href="http://community.livejournal.com/serving_sword/">Serving The Sword</A>. It hasn't been updated since 2005, but I hope to&nbsp;change that. <SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">&nbsp;</SPAN>Please join if you can!</SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">I wrote this ages &amp; ages ago, so if it sucks, well...&nbsp; I'm very sorry.</SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">Oh, &amp; one more thing.&nbsp;The characters belong to myself and my sister, darthelwig.&nbsp; Please respect that.&nbsp; Thank you.<SPAN style="mso-spacerun: yes">&nbsp; :)</SPAN></SPAN></P>
<P><SPAN style="FONT-SIZE: 11pt; COLOR: black; FONT-FAMILY: 'Calibri','sans-serif'; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">Anyway, enjoy. Peace, all.<o:p></o:p></SPAN></P>
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		  		  	<category>original</category>
		  		  	<category>prose</category>
		  		  	<category>slash</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>ghosthelwig</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-10-08T19:28:00Z</dc:date>
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	      <title><![CDATA[His Hands (Yin)]]></title>
	      <link>http://ghosthelwig.buzznet.com/user/journal/3135381/</link>
	      <description><![CDATA[<DIV class=topicbody>His Hands (Yin)<BR>by Ghost Helwig<BR><BR>His hands<BR>They quiver and they rage<BR>Strong<BR>Pushing<BR>He never holds<BR>Never lets go<BR>I watch him dream<BR>Watch him strum a guitar<BR>Tear a string<BR>His heartbeat beats within my fingers<BR>His heartbeat beats within my bones<BR>His heart beats<BR>In the quiet<BR>He struggles to make a sound<BR>He’s forgotten how<BR>I hold out hope<BR>Hold out me<BR>What I can<BR>I hold out my hands<BR>He stares and stares<BR>I hold out<BR>There is nothing between us<BR>But he will not let me go<BR><I>I used to know you</I>, I tell him<BR>I used to know me<BR>His hands quiver<BR>They rage<BR>They save<BR>I touch his fingers<BR>He is freedom<BR>And I’m caged<BR>Swift in daylight<BR>Lost under the moon<BR>He has no patience for my silences<BR>No stomach for my screams<BR>I withhold my voice<BR>I hold out my hands<BR>He is lovely in the quiet<BR>Angry at his pain<BR>Fists clenched by solemnity<BR>Unchecked<BR>Not brave<BR>Hardly sane<BR><BR>And I love him<BR>In my way<BR><BR><BR><BR>...I hope you all like it. :)</DIV>]]></description>
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		  		  	<category>original</category>
		  		  	<category>poetry</category>
		  		  	<category>prose</category>
		  		  <category>Buzznet</category>
	      <dc:creator>ghosthelwig</dc:creator>
	      <dc:date>2008-10-08T15:06:00Z</dc:date>
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